Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thinking About

I'm still in the kantha stitch embroidery mode.  Maybe I just need the meditative feel of simple stitching with no end in mind, no design in mind, nothing but wandering over the cloth.  Or is it an avoidance activity?

While I'm not feeling any obvious anxiety, the Christmas season often feels overwhelming.  A great shame, isn't it?  Yet holidays, which should be a time of joy, bring pressure as well.  I love seeing Christmas decorations, but have to be in the right frame of mind to begin them in my home.  So far, only a little Christmas decorating here, because I keep retreating to the studio and needle and cloth.

The studio itself may be a source of some repressed anxiety.  :O  I want to re-arrange things, but as you all know, re-arranging means disassembling, organizing, calculating where and how to fit things in, decisions, decisions, decisions, and effort.  I'd like to move my large storage cabinet, but it must be emptied out first.  Whoa!  Now that is a big and time-consuming job.

My cutting/work table is not as convenient as I'd like, but in limited space, where can it go without causing another problem?

As I work myself into a frenzy of anxiety (may have been repressed before, but not now!), I realize that my Christmas decorating mood is dependent on my being actively Christmas crafty, and I can't really craft until the studio is at least more organized.

Now, what?  Retreat to stitching or gather my energy and determination and attack the studio?

This Autumn doll should have been completed by now.  Maybe I'll work on her today.

What?  I'm procrastinating again?

O.K.  I can do this.  Marshaling my determination...and going up to work on studio.  For a little while...

Maybe then I can move on to other things.

What a cute video!


  1. I think you are living inside my head. Because these are my thoughts exactly. Sometimes I feel like I am facing the world with my hands tied behind my back...one step forward, two steps back. My kids are both moving into new apts this weekend and each still have loads of stuff here. I'm hoping more gets moved out this time around...our lives are in a constant state of transition it seems... Love the autumn doll, such character in her face =-)

  2. Sigh...welcome to my world. Something always pulls me this way or that.

  3. Sounds to me like you are living in limbo land. The only way out is to make a decision and proceed. Unless you like limbo land, then no decision is your decision.

    It's still early--you could rearrange your studio so you are ready for the 1st of the year AND decorate for the holidays. You really have that much time.

  4. Great post, all too true. Cutest video ever! Thanks for sharing :)

  5. DebbyMc - Good to hear from you--I was just thinking about you the other day!

    Hope you get the kids situated soon. Sometimes we get too much on our plates at one time, especially at this time of year!

    Rian - That's life, isn't it? Sometimes we need a little space to shut down, both mentally and physically and fuhgeddaboutit. :)

    Debra - Just making excuses to do what I want instead of what needs to be done! I do that every once in a while.

    Started on the studio, but it will take a while. I have more crafts and interests than room to store and space to work, and usually, I want it done in the space of a day. As if!

    Nancy - Love that video--it makes me smile and energizes me. Glad you enjoyed it!

  6. Jenclair, I love the beginning of the Autumn doll-just wonderful!!

  7. Thanks, Sherri! She was coming along nicely yesterday, but has now hit another stall. Those darn dolls have minds of their own!


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